I'm only using this cause myspace is being gay and I wanna get this through.

So since we're into putting things in public now,

Let's make this public shall we?

I guess here's an apology (..) for having you two being mislead to thinking my blogs are directed to you. First of all no they aren't. Second of all, they're my thoughts, in preferred reader, for people I trust. If I wanted to call you out in public I would've used your names but, I don't think so, I'd much rather do it in person, most of all, privately.But then again those problems don't concern any of you, if I had a problem I'd say it straight up.

It's not wrong to have other friends, right? We don't always have to spend every second together. You two have done nothing wrong. Quit thinking it. I'm at a point where I just need to chill out and think everything through. Sorry if I 'changed' as in being more quiet than usual. I'm still pretty unstable since my brother left, and I need to help myself. No one else can help me. I was raised to be much more responsible than I should be (even if I don't live up to it), and forced to be an independant at a much younger age because of my dad's poor health conditions if you didn't know. I never stated that I was better than anyone. No one is. Everyone has their flaws. So can you blame me for 'changing'?

I didn't state anything about you two being snobs.FYI, I save my money from earning it and other occasions such as holidays. Oh and by the way, my mom bought the dress and the next day she took the money from my bank account. 

They were thoughts about things I didn't like and they weren't about you two. Believe it or whatever the hell you want. You could have a lost friend if you wanted it to be after reading this. But please, next time, confront me before you assume, and also make me look like a fool.

I'm sorry, for false assumptions and etc.

PAM MAKES A COMEBACK ON XANGA?


Oh my OH-FIVE


Them old Hugo days...

Aka. My ugly fatty days. Don't deny it. Just agree, you know it's true.

Last uniform day.

Sporting Lexa's glasses on the second to last day. Gawd. I was just ew.

Cedar Point

Graduation. .Prolly the tops of my fatty days.

Summer days just sitting around but when the sun goes down.. I'll be ready to party

Honestly. This was by far the best summer I ever had. No there was no cruise nor a high class resort.
But I just graduated. Started varsity dance team for NDP. Plus I lost lotsa weight. Went to random parties. I always had something to do. And I spent it with people that were just amazingggg and I love em. You can tell who they are if they appear in a lot of pics. Duh.

2005 PMAM Induction Ball @ Sheraton Hotel. Ewww again, I was such a fatty.

Fountain Walk. Same nighhtt.

Ria's open house.

Ready for this?
June 28, 2005.

I'd have to say this was the best night I had during the summer.


We were on the Canadian side for the Michigan/Canada fireworks.
Heh I remember this day. It was sweeeeet.
It involved a lot of lying to the rents and sneaking around with my Kuya =).

Qiwen: I want them to make one of those big ass-hearts again.
Venez: What's an ass-heart?
Ready for the men that made my summer awesome?



Lmao. You three know what I'm laughing at. That last picture.. oh man.
But! Although I hate how I look in all three of these pics, you guys reallllly made my summer sweet. Nez, Steve, and especially my Kuya, I never got around to saying it but, thunksss guysss =).
I have a surprise for you three. Here and here.
Anywho. That night me, Nez, and Steve, crashed at my bro's apartment. I didn't sleep. Nez didn't sleep. We were supposed to wake up at 10 to move stuff from my bro's old apartment to his new one.

June 29, 05
"Kuya: Do I go to your house and pee on your bed??

Kuya: Detroit, time to go to work ::slams hammer into the wall::

::walking with mirror at 3AM::
Kuya: Man Pam looks crazy with that mirror.
Venez: It's like she looks in the mirror at herself, "STOP FOLLOWING ME!"

Venez: That's why it's called Leapord's Lounge, because all the girls have spots all over their bodies. (Leapord's Lounge - Canadian strip bar)

Steve: (during fireworks, made a phone call to his mom) MOM! ::screams in distress::
Mom on other line: Esteben where are you?
Steve: ::fireworks bursting in bg:: I'M IN IRAQ! OH MY GOD!"

My bro and his autographed wall.

Do I have to explain?
Oh guys. Two more surprises. Here and here. =) enjoyyyy.


Ballet Manila show was funnn

Minneapolis trip.




-Detroit Shock game

Look at my finger in the last pic. Until now I still feel naked without it.

Yet another Detroit Night. But then again,  it was my last.

Thatttt was my summer in a nutshell.

And so the year went on..

Toronto





NDP Whaaaat?
Homecoming Stuff






The other candle went missing.



Kuya's Birthday


Gwen Stefani ft. Black Eyed Peas Concert


Battle of the Bands


Christmas





Downtown Rochester





New Years Eve






Ah yes a new year. 2006.
Well I'm a tid bit late you could say, But I don't care. One month has already passed, but it's been amaaaaazing. I'm starting of freshhhhhhh like bread just outta the oven =)

Fav. Memories of 2005:
- Graduating
- Making Varsity NDP Dance Team
- New school, new awesome friends
- Notice anything missing in the pics? Okay in Dec. I got my mole removed (right eyebrow, left eyebrow in your vision)

Oh and I dyed my hair reddish auburn type color at the beginning of this year soo...

2006 New Year's Resolutions
- Abusiveness has to tone down just a little bit... that is quite impossible =p
- Maintain a clean room, again another impossible one.
- Step up on school work. (already done)
- Never change. Honestly, I don't think I have. One bit. =)

Current band addictions (I'm not saying their new)
Panic! At the Disco
Vendetta Red
From First to Last
The Killers
Death Cab for Cutie
Chiodos

Add me: Myspace

Now Playing: Panic! At the Disco - Build God, Then We'll Talk

Well I'm not expecting many comments cause nobody comments anymore. Jeez.
-Loves

::flashback to X-Mas '04::

It's almost 2 AM... do you know where your children are? LOL okay Christmas is really makin me jumpy. :o) But it's goood. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
Well, we had pplz over today. It was fun.. mhhhhm. Yep yep. Here some pics... I'll post more tomorrow.. actually it is tomorrow.. so then in a couple of hours.
So the first 2 pics are from bowling.


Insert: Tim, Drew, Rob, Mike. Tim and Drew couldn't make it... PUNKS! hah Rob and Mike left before I took the pic :-p When this pic was taken,
PAT BUMPED HIS HEAD ON MINE WHICH CAUSED MINE TO BUMP INTO ANDREA'S, you can tell by our facial expressions.


All white and one asian crew... keke. How lovely!


Ahhh, my cousins. Always fun to hang around. See that girl on the far right? My godmommy says I look like her. Heh yayy imma look like Meesh!


The guys playing poker...


Steph, my godmommy to be, and I. My camera was being stupid.. i dunno why there are white spots....


Aww it was cool seeing Sanders again...


Uhh HI CHRIS!


Too much to drink Steve? HAH kidding! .. or did you just lose all your money in a poker game.. hehe


Me n my bf... the bear ;) hot isnt he?


Steve and I.. no i don't wear glasses, i was using Chris'.


But don't I look muy intelligente?! LOL RIGHHHTTTT

So there ya go! I promise you, more will be posted! Merry Christmas!

::edit:: I said you'd get more pics... HERE! ::throws them at you:: TAKE IT! ::runs away:: Oh yeah... theres another party tonight... so you'll be getting more pics lol.


Meesh and I


Poker with the Titos


Aww happy berfday Chris! ....::cough:: ALMOST 30!


Phil, Steph, Rina, Me, and Steeeeveeeeeee [who rocks cuz he got Mean Girls for me :o)]

Kayyyy more pics later!
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How did she do that? How did she get her old entry?
Well kids, I didn't delete my old account due to... yeah. Long story won't get into that. But yep. It's official. Winter has begun because there's snow on the ground =) yay.
Thanksgiving is tomorrow.
Can you believe it?
I really really really can't.
My house is fully decked out in X-mas decorations. Including our new 12foot tree is set up. I'm excited.

Battle of the Bands was last night at NDP. It was sweet.
Pics are here.

Two Finger Salute should've won.
Period.

yes it's been a while since I've updated. But hey. Sorry. =p

Gwen Stefani ft. Black Eyed Peas Concert 
                                                 

                                                                   10.29.05
                  


Yeah I snuck in my digi cam. So?

I <3 Alexa =)

::edit::
Halloween '05
         
We swear. We're innocent =)

                     
                             God. I was so cute. What the crap happened? lol.

Yeah it's been a while. Sorry kids, I have a life lol jk. But I've been busy.
Here's a ginormo update about Pam's life just for you with some eye candy while I'm at it..

Let's go wayyyyyyy back to the week of my birthday.

Sunday: Well Mimi came homeeee! And we went to Somerset for like 2 hours, the time I spent with her was short, but hey, at least I got to see my 'big sister' right? =) Mimi got me the shirt that I was wearing on my bday. Like the shirt in the picture on the previous entry.Thanks for taking me outtttt and for the gift =D, i missssss you.

Wednesday: FALL OUT BOY CONCERT! It was the best concert I've ever been to. So FOB just came out, and my bro went to go get food. He came back with a torn napkin with the autograph of the lead singer of Motion City Soundtrack. I was jealous/mad/happy. 

                                   
Sorry. Tad bit blurry, but it's hanging on my mirror, above my concert ticket stub =)

Friday: Homecoming dance team tailgate yayyy. Homecoming game yayyyy, and my bday, yayyyy.
     Tailgate party: So we're smack dab in the middle of the parking lot, seriously. We're dancing all over the place to whatever was on.. mainly the Peanut Butter Jelly song and the Ice Cream and Cake song. lol No need to explain, camp stuff. But anywho, we're partying and eating and whatnot, and Wrouble comes along and tells us to move all of our crap to the side of the parking lot. That was pretty gay. The parking lot was pretty crowded too. I'd say about like 7 other tailgate parties? Some other guys brought a portable bonfire. Pretty sweet I must say.  Like how I'm blowing out my non existant candles with Erin? lol.
     Homecoming game: It was sweet. Surprise surprise Susie and Andrea came =). I was happy. They didn't exactly watch the halftime though lol, it's okay they got a good experience of how sweet my school is. They agreed. But anywho, guess who else showed up? My bro,Carol,NEZ!, Chris!, and Estebeeee boy came. Along with my mom and aunt. So all them college boys came to watch me.. I guess nows the time to tell you that oh so interesting story about my birthday night eh? Okay. So they came to watch me.. andddd meet my homecoming date, Josh. lol. So they met him during my halftime... and of course 'got to know him' lol. I'm not exactly sure what they asked or what was said but, I guess it went well? lol. How do I know that? Well, my brother invited him back to our house lmao. Since everybody was going back to our house anyways to get some foooood. Before I go on here's a pic from the game:
     After party at my hoooose: Ehm well. I arrive at my driveway in my mom's van. Note: Josh had to ride with the guys.. alone. lol. And I find them outside on the driveway watching Venez and his crazy bball skills. And we all go inside andddd we chow down.
Yum yum?
But anyways Chris and my bro leave.
I got upstairs to change out of my jersey. Guess What I find on my desk.
Yes all that would be, Puma shoes, Puma purse, Puma socks (not shown in pic) AE belt, and the one that made me laugh, a bottle of Fierce cologne LOL. All from the AWESOME Venez. You still suck for going into my room. So I change and I run downstairs like crazy and I had a spaz and said my thank you. The girls all went up to my room just to hang and yada yada. I went up there to talk for a bit and I discover on my dresser...
Underneath that was a note that read: Check Cookie Monster's mouth. Well I have a stuffed animal thats Cookie Monster, and it was face flat on my bed. So I turned it over and what popped out of his mouth was.....all from my AMAZING big brother =). Hopefully a surprise performance with No Doubt? Cause personally I liked her better with No Doubt, but it's all okay.

So he comes back home with Chris, and I spaz on him and said my thank you. And he was disappointed that I found it already, cause apparently the first part of the gift was a hoodie (which is in the wash right now, which explains the missing pic of it). I was supposed to reach inside the pocket of the hoodie for a note that said to go upstairs and look in my room, but I guess I found all of it before he got home. But it was sweet. So I guess Carol, Steve, and Chris, talked to Venez lol. They also got me the Warped Tour 2005 Compilation Cd. Thanks muchhhhhh!
You know what Susie made me?
                                          


   
That's right. My very own Pimp cup. I wanted to pee my pants when I first saw it.
Then all the girls had to leave (except for Julia)=(

Left to right: Julia, Susie, Andrea, Yvonne, and moi.
Julia, and the rest of the guys, Carol, and Josh stayed till 3. My brother gave Josh a ride home... not really sure how that went lol.

What else did I get for my bday?

Already spent it. lol. On what?
<-Purchased after I got my hairdone.. before HC lol.


And of course the cash/checks which are all safely deposited in my bank account, which I cannot see. If I can't see it, then there's nothing to spend.. unless I withdraw with my ATM card lol. But I'm kinda trying to save up for X-mas presents =P cause I'm a nice girl like that.

Twas a goood bday in all, thanks you guys =D

Saturday you know all about. Since it was HC night and all.

::fast forward to my bro's bday::

Went to Erebus with Estebe boyyyyy and my bro. It was gay. Came home and the guys arrived and yadayada. Actually I really don't remember what else went on... hmm.. yeah. But my present to him was a horrible attempt to beat his gifts =(. If only I knew what else to get him. Anywho I got him the latest Dave Chapelle Live dvd and Tekken 5. Uh huh.

Okay okay.. sooo the big stuff. Ready?

Pam's got a new hairstyle. You've never seen Pam and her natural hair. I promise you, you've NEVER EVER seen it naturally. It's always straight. Well I learned to appreciate my natural hair.
Yes. It's naturally wavy. Different ain't it?

*Announcement*
NDP Dance Team
Well. Football season is over, and my parents decided that it's a hassle for them and I guess I've gotten too thin? Something like that. And it would be easier on them if I'm done with dance team after the season. Soooo sad to say, HC game was my last time performing. Yeah it's saddening but I'm learning to get over it. Next year I'll be on it the whole year for sure, reason being I can't really say at the moment. So thanks to all who came to watch =)

Alotta stuff has been going on, and alot of stuff has been changing, some REALLY good, and not so much bad. And there's going to be a BIG change during this month. Like HUGE. Something's going to be gone that I've had for most of my life. You'll see what I'm talking about when it's gone. Haha don't worrry! You can ask questions but I'm not telling you until it happens. =P

But that's all. Mhmmm...

Props por favor people =)